My Favorite Post!

On April 17th bright and early in the morning Josh and I went into the doctors office for our transfer. I can't explain to you how nervous/scared/excited I was just to be there. Below is the picture of the embryo. There is a big black circle and underneath that is a white line; and that is our baby 😍

To our surprise 10 days later I went into the doctors office. I literally prayed the whole way there. I didn't know what to expect. I really honestly had no idea if I was pregnant. So I got my bloodwork done and I was off to work. Knowing that in a little while one phone call could literally change my mind. Low and behold at around 10:30ish that morning that call came in. The nurse confirmed it, and with tears in my eyes and my voice shaking I thanked the nurse and called my husband. The rest of that day was a blur. But I had a certainty that no matter what everything was going to be fine from here. After two more blood tests my levels were going up like they should! And last Friday I had my first ultrasound. It doesn't look like much but there's a tiny little baby in there! That is my 5w6d ultrasound! 

This morning I went back for my 6w6d ultrasound. And I saw the most amazing little flicker of light. And I knew it was my little baby's heartbeat. I couldn't hear it, but my heart literally skipped a beat when I saw it. 

And now I know that our little baby is growing and what a wonderful feeling it is. 

I want to thank each and every one of you who have prayer, cried, laughed, and encouraged us through this process. And while I'm sure parenthood is going to be a roller coaster, this has already been one heck of a ride. I've never felt so blessed and thankful for God has blessed us with this itty bitty baby that's growing inside of me. I seriously love and appreciate you all! You have encouraged me when I had about had it with injections and pills, you've made me smile. When I was feeling negative about our results I relied on your faith when I felt like mine was running out. I will keep you updated as I know more and of course when we find out the gender. Please keep praying for a healthy

 pregnancy! I have faith that it's going to work out and be fine! 

Until next time 

~Amber 

The Transfer

Tomorrow is the big day! Tomorrow at 8 am we will be transferring two of our little growing embryos into my body! I'm so stinking excited I can't stand it! I doubt I will be getting any sleep tonight. The super exciting part of this whole part is that Josh gets to be in the room with me. 

With all of that said several days after the procedure they will be able to tell me if I'm pregnant. So this going to be my last post for a few weeks! And after all that I've been through these past couple of weeks it means a lot to have all of you by my side through out this whole process! Seriously you have no idea how you've encouraged me day after day. I'm so glad that I decided to take a chance and start this blog. I hope you've found some encouragement in reading and I hope you too can share your journey and help just one person. I promise it will be worth it! 

Please continue to pray with me and my family for our little miracle<3

~Until next time! 

Egg Retrieval Part 2

Hi Everyone! 

Thank you all so much for your well wishes and prayers! Thankfully the Egg Retrieval yesterday was a major success! They were able to get 10 eggs! Apparently the average is 6-8. So I was so excited to hear that news! But this morning I got a call from my doctors and they told me that 9 of the 10 eggs fertilized! How insanely incredible! I was so surprised! I know I'm an emotional mess but I swear everytime I speak to the drs office I tear up! 

Please continue to pray for all 9 of our little growing embryos :-) On Friday they will transfer two of the best looking embryos and the others will be frozen! So far everything is going the way it's supposed to. I can't help but smile and I can't help but see Gods handy work in mine and Josh's life.

I also want to encourage you, if you are having fertility issues to talk about them. I promise it will make this journey so much easier. You'd also be surprised how many people are having similar issues! It truly helps. I promise since I've started this blog I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders! 

I will update more on Friday! Thanks for joining my journey! 

~Until next time! 

Egg Retrieval!

Today I got my schedule for the next phase of this crazy journey. Sunday morning I go in for the egg retrieval! It's the most exciting/stressful/scary time right now! I can't believe it's finally here! After all this time, after all the daily shots, it's almost here! It's finally our shot at having a baby. In case you're reading this and you have no idea what the egg retrieval process is I'll tell you!


Basically I've been taking a bunch of meds to increase the size of the follicles that are in my ovaries. The follicles hold the eggs. The goal is to get the follicles to a certain size. The day of the egg retrieval they take out as many eggs as they can. The same day they fertilize those eggs. And for five days they "grow" essentially into embryos. On the fifth day they will transfer two of those embryos back into my body. And several days later we'll know if I'm pregnant.....


With all of that being said, the egg retrieval is a little more difficult. So I ask you for all your prayers, thoughts, vibes or whatever you have to give. They do put me to sleep which is why I guess I'm a little anxious. I'm trying not to put all my eggs in one basket (pun intended). But I'm super excited and I am speaking great things. God gives us the desire of our hearts, and I know I want to be a mother. I hope one day my child that I will have will be able to see how much I loved them before they were even here, how much we wanted them. My body has been through so much these past few years, I know that it will be worth it. I'm staying positive because I know Gods word is true.

Again, thank you all for your kind words and prayers. You can't possibly know how much that means to me<3 I'll leave you with this:

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and a sound mind.
2 Timothy 1:7

~ And until next time

And We're Off

So yesterday afternoon I got the call from my doctors office to start the daily injections. With mixed emotions last evening Josh and I mixed all the meds and took another step closer to starting our family!

Throughout these past few weeks since I've shared my journey I've heard from so many people. A lot of people have told me how heartbroken they are for us. They are sad for us because we have to go this route. While I appreciate everyones thoughts and prayers I don't want anyone to be sad for us. This isn't the path I would of chosen. But I have to believe that there is a reason that this is happening to us. I have to believe that one day when I'm holding that little baby, I can honestly say we have waited and prayed for you for so long. I have to hold on to that. If not I'll go crazy. Thank you to all those that are praying for us. Pray for our courage and strength. Pray for our success, pray for my health and mostly pray for us in case it doesn't work. We'll need extra prayers. I'm holding on to my faith and to all of the positivity in the world!


~And until next time!

Hurry Up and Wait...

Waiting is the worst part about this whole situation. You have to start your cycle before you start your meds....lucky me I'm now almost two weeks late, therefore putting IVF off another week. I wish I could say that I was late because I was pregnant....how exciting would that of been? But my doctors appointment yesterday proved that I was not. So now I just have to wait...story of my life.

So I'll stop complaining and talk about Hope.  My sister and my brother in law tried for three years to get pregnant, I won't share all of the details of her story because that's her story to tell, not mine. I learned a lesson watching them gracefully go through years of disappointments, tears, sadness and hopefulness. But one day I was at lunch with some of my girlfriends and I got a phone call from her telling me she took a pregnancy test and it was positive. I remember crying tears of joy, it was surreal.  It still is. And one year ago she gave birth to the most perfect little boy who has captured my heart and who has completely change my idea of miracles, babies and the way God works. I was lucky enough to be in the room when he made his entrance into the world. I can't tell you how beautiful of a moment it was and how exciting it was for me to be with my sister when she became a mom. Makes my outlook a little better as Josh and I wait for our miracle to be concieved. I know that our child is patiently waiting for us too. And below is a picture of me and Liam at his first birthday ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you for reading and following my journey. I hope this gives you hope if you are in a similar situation. I'm glad that I have support and and insane amount of people praying for us. You never know how much I appreciate it. 

Until next time! 

Medications!

As you may or may not know the whole point of IVF is to essentially pump you full of meds to help you ovulate, take those eggs out, fertilize them and then put the embryo back in. Seems easy right? It's pretty insane actually. And I'll show you why....I got a package containing this today:

Pretty scary if you don't know what you are getting yourself into. Thankfully and luckily I have a husband who had to get certified to give injections in pharmacy school. I really lucked out when it comes to him! It's really important to have your husband on your side when you're going through all of this. I'm sure he is eager to give me shots 😉 I'm really anxious to get started on this adventure! I just finally feel really positive about this adventure. I hope that if you are reading this you'll send your prayers and positive thoughts our way! I'm about one week out from starting all of this craziness! 


Until next time! 

~Amber