Failure

During this whole infertility process I've faced a lot of emotions. The hardest part of it all was feeling like a failure. I'm a woman, our bodies were made to have babies. Our bodies know exactly what to do and they know exactly when to do it. My body started failing me about a year ago. All of the sudden I just stopped ovulating. And I still can't wrap my mind around it. 

Lately I've tried to let go of that feeling of failure. For a long time I thought I was failing my husband too. I kept thinking that I was his chance to have a family and it's my fault that we are in this position. What a crappy way to feel. Luckily I pray. I pray often. When I'm feeling particularly crappy I pray all day long I feel like. But it really helps me. And lately I don't feel so sad and crappy about what my body isn't doing or what I think it should be doing. I feel like it's a process I work through each day. And thankfully I have family and friends who listen to me whine and complain. So lucky that I have an awesome support system! 

I wanted to thank each and everyone of you who have commented or messaged me. Thank you for your prayers, your thoughts and your personal stories you've shared. Makes me feel so much better I'm not alone! 

Until next time! 

~Amber